There have been many times throughout my life that I have heard the term “Late Bloomer” being used to describe and compare children to other children on their process of growing up, whether it was in their physical, emotional, or cognitive development. I perhaps have done the same with my children, whether I said it out loud or thought it.
I also have on different occasions used this term to describe myself and others. Throughout my life I have compared myself to other people’s lives, in particular women. I would say to myself, “They have an amazing career,” “They have an amazing marriage,” “They have their life all figured out, they know what their purpose is and they’re living it, and here I am, still not knowing what my purpose is and I sure don’t have a career.” So you could say I have been comparing other people’s outsides with my insides.
While I was taking a shower the other morning a thought came. It was a very clear and powerful thought: “Late bloomer or divine timing?” Can it be possible that I needed to experience everything I have up until now to be where I am? With the knowledge, the awareness, the knowing and the clarity of who I am and what my purpose is. Without everything that I have experienced on a physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual level I wouldn’t be where I am. I needed everything to happen at the pace and in the order that it did for me to fulfill my purpose. My purpose is not like anyone else’s. Others may have had a shorter journey to get to where they are because their purpose is different. It doesn’t make it better or less than, it is just different and just as important for what the world needs at this time.
To make sense of my thought, and as Oprah would say an “Aha moment,” I have come to realize that I haven’t been a late bloomer, it just wasn’t yet time for me show up in the way that the world needed me. I am here now, knowing my purpose, and part of that is to share my divine timing of contributing to our Balanced Is blog. I hope that by sharing my experience and awareness you may come to also realize and accept your journey being exactly as it needed and needs to be, for you to be where you are right now at this time at this moment reading this blog.
Thank You Maria. I have been a late bloomer also.
Hi Darlene, thank you for your comment. Perhaps you are not a late bloomer, and everything is in divine timing. Something to consider? Maria
“Can it be possible that I needed to experience everything I have up until now to be where I am?” … I welcome you (as well as me) to the “Second Half of Life”, the “second naiveté’ as described by a favorite Franciscan writer. St.John of the Cross called it “Luminous Darkness” and I see it in true Elders who have found their wholeness and fulness in the universe. I now embrace this season of peace – of bright sadness and a sober happiness – and the season of service and give-away. YOU are a gift to me – you and your writings. Write On!
Papy, thank you for your wisdom and kind words. Thank you for validating my experience by acknowledging my words. I am grateful for the gift of you. Maria